Easter musings

 Dear Moi,

Happy Easter 2025! 

Things have certainly been interesting on my end. Remember that vacant position I mentioned? Well, I'm now the presumptive officer! It's funny because I was actually manifesting for a different role with the same rank, so this came as a surprise. I'm feeling a mix of fear and gratitude as I step into this new responsibility.

Interestingly, I learned some of the behind-the-scenes dynamics during the nomination process. Apparently, one of the administrators didn't vote for me. Instead, she supported someone within her own division – and here's the twist – that person happens to be my former protégé... and ex. Talk about a plot twist! I honestly don't understand her opposition, but as they say, you can't please everyone.

Speaking of the ex, we've been in contact for a couple of months now, both professionally and personally. To be completely honest, we've been intimate a few times, even though he's still with the person he cheated on. I'm grappling with a lot of complex emotions about this situation. Is he doing this to keep me attached, or is it simply pity sex? The only thing clear is the undeniable release of sexual tension during our encounters.

On the advocacy front, things seem to be in a bit of a lull. The NBI concern is still pending, although all the necessary steps have been taken. I anticipate things will pick up again in May with the re-accreditation process. For the other advocacy, we have the oath-taking next week, and with a manager now in place, I'm hopeful that things will run more smoothly compared to previous years. I'm also trying to figure out how to fit in my training obligations. I've already submitted some documents to partially cover the Thailand training from January.

Finances continue to be a major source of anxiety, especially with the looming mortgage. I'm three months behind on payments, and I'm genuinely terrified. I'm praying that the increased salary from my presumptive position, starting in June, will provide some much-needed relief. I know I need to explore the services offered by Pag-IBIG and SSS. I'm incredibly grateful for my mom's support, but the truth is, I'm really struggling financially right now – even my cat's food is in jeopardy.

On a brighter note, I passed the midterm exams for all three of my law school subjects. I'm now focusing on gathering the strength to push through until the finals, which are scheduled for the first or second week of May. If all goes well and I have some funds left over, I'm considering taking two subjects over the summer.

Well, that's where things stand for now.

No images because I'm too lazy.