Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Auditory Hallucination

Call me maybe is embedded in my ears. I've been waking up with this song playing on my head

Then last Monday I came across with this video ...

I'm infatuated with chestnut hair guy. I just wanna cuddle him, he's adorable!

Yes, I like twinks :) hahaha

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Shake It Out

One of the reasons why I donate blood quarterly is the free laboratory exam for infectious diseases. I'm a cheapskate, sue me :)

Last March, I learned that there's a clinic in Manila that gives free testing for people like us. Here's my results...

I went there alone, but I didn't feel scared or anxious. The staffs are friendly and the counselor is not your typical counselor, I felt at home. Talking to the counselor about my sexual history is quite liberating and I learned a lot about myself and HIV/AIDS.

The waiting time is approximately 2 hours because they use both the Rapid and Particle Agglutination HIV tests.Waiting for the result is the most excruciating part of the ordeal but it's worth it because I want to know my status, may it be positive or negative.

Just click this link for more info about RITM Satellite Clinic in Malate.

Know your status, it's time to get tested!

This song helped me when I took the test and yes I'm enamored with Smash :)

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Busy Bee or Lazy Me


Call me, maybe :)


Here's a rundown of my so called life starting February

February - My English tutor and I met and it went well but due to conflict of schedule we are not able to meet again. My work ate a lot of my time but it seemed like it paid off because my department was nominated for 6 awards and I got 2 nominations, one for social responsibility and the other one is for quality service. My department won the awards but I went home empty handed. I was disappointed because I know that I more than deserve the award but hey that's life. This is the second year in a row that I went home empty handed. Never the bride always the bridesmaid...

For March, I was supposed to take my exams but again I was not able to do that because of 
1.     I'm financially broke and I don't have the money for the exam.
2.     I'm not confident with my speaking skills because I don't have anyone to converse with. I tried talking to my friends in English but they only made fun of me.
3.     I assisted my parents with their executive check-up and that depleted my budget for the exam and for reviewing. I know my parents can pay for their medical bills but I need to shoulder the bills because I feel that it is my responsibility as their son to give back what they've given me when I was still a child. You see, I feel like I'm not a good son because i'm gay and I cannot give them a grandchild. I know this is unreasonable but this is how I feel. They're the best parents and I feel that i don't deserve them because of my sexuality.

Anyway, last April, my papa was hospitalized due to skin abscess and again I shouldered the medical bills. Aside from the abscess he was also diagnosed with prostate cancer. Thank heavens it was caught early and the doctor prescribed him some medicines.

My parents stayed in my condo for 2 weeks and it was both a blessing and a curse. I don't wanna dwell with this so I'll stop here...

Now you're updated. 

hmm I don't check my grammar when I post my thoughts. I just type what's in my head and click publish. I'm lazy and I know it.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Je suis très désolé pour l'update plus tard!

I am very sorry for the late update. It's not because I'm super busy with my schedule, it's because life is kicking my butt.

So what's the reason why I started posting again?

It's because of him...

I was inspired to write again.

I first met him last year when he was rotated in my department. I have a coordinator who supervises the underlings but every time there was an opportunity to be close to him I always grab it, like being the panel in their journal report and projects. He's smart and good looking, even he's "sungki" is adorable. But even if I have a gargantuan crush on him, I never crossed the line. Not because he's straight but because I don't want to ruin my reputation. 

It's been 2 months since I last saw him and I still have this butterflies inside my tummy every time I see his pictures. 

You never fail to inspire me Marco.

I hope our paths will cross again (hopefully not in my workplace...)

Je t'adore...

Marco reminds me of my only singer crush Kris Allen, they are both on the vertically challenged side but that doesn't matter because both have an adorable face and a drool worthy physique!

I'm very much infatuated with Marco and Kris Allen.