Thursday, November 10, 2011

Ramblings and Foolishness

I wish I have a camera, I wanna capture this vista...


 the sky is changing it's color, it's dusk... 

Majestic comes to my mind... 

Don't know why...

I'll describe what I'm seeing... 

The shadow of boats and vintas sailing, dusty colors of the sky that ranges from the color gray to red, dusky violet to orange, grayish orange, sky blue that reminds me of mother Mary. 

Feathery grey clouds outlined with dark Grayish orange panorama, twinkling stars,bleeping lights.. 

In the background, sound of waves crashing the shores, the high pitched voice of swimming children, couples, group of friends sitting on the shoreline whispering... Talking... Music playing. 

What's missing? Words are not enough to describe the things that I'm seeing and the emotions that plays with my heart and thoughts that's running in my head. 

Sadness, envy, yearning, sliver of contentment, snippet of happiness... 

A whole gamut of emotions running through my mind, heart and soul.

Wishing for someone to come by, start a conversation.... Sigh... 

I wanna go to a dark spot, lie down and view the skies, figure out the constellations...


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It's twilight and I will challenge myself today. 

I'm going to talk to a stranger before going to sleep. 

This is my last night here... 

Hmm I feel like a predator.... 

Shocks!

My mind is telling me to not get through this insane challenge... 

but my longing for company is stronger...

Trying to scan the crowd looking for someone to talk to... 

I'm not good at this...  

How about talking to a group, that's less threatening... 

But how to start a conversation? 

Looking for a "prey"... Shocks I feel like I'm a lecherous old guy preying the young and the innocent.... 

Can I choose female? 

Yep, I know it defeats the point. 

I'm scared of making conversations with men so I need to talk to a man and swallow my fear... 

It all boils down to confidence, am I confident? Do I have the guts to do this?

I think I have...

but 

there's no prospect here...

Maybe I need Change location...

Closer to the shore, maybe I'll have more luck... I'm crazy!

This is not working, It's almost 22:00...

It's not my lucky night...

hmmm Contemplating about taking a dip... Skinny dipping...





Give me a second I
I need to get my story straight
My friends are in the bathroom
getting higher than the empire state
my lover she's waiting for me
just across the bar
My seats been taken by some sunglasses
asking 'bout a scar
and I know I gave it to you months ago
I know you're trying to forget
but between the drinks and subtle things
the holes in my apologies
you know I'm trying hard to take it back
so if by the time the bar closes
and you feel like falling down
I'll carry you home 

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter 
than the sun

Tonight
we are young
so let's set the world on fire
we can burn brighter
than the sun

Now I know that I'm not
all that you got
I guess that I
I just thought maybe we could find a ways to fall apart
But are friends in back
So let's raise a cup
Cause I found someone to carry me home 

Tonight
We are young
So let's the set the world on fire
we can burn brighter
than the sun

Tonight
We are young
so let's set the world on fire
we can burn brighter
than the sun

Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight
Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight

The world is on my side
I have no reason to run
So will someone come and carry me home tonight
The angels never arrived
but I can hear the choir
so will someone come and carry me home 

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
we can burn brighter
than the sun

Tonight
We are young
so let's set the world on fire
we can burn brighter
than the sun

So if by the time the bar closes
and you feel like falling down
I'll carry you home tonight 


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As of 23:00 I was not able to accomplish my challenge of talking to a stranger but I was able to skinny dip ;)




4 comments:

  1. It really needs a lot of courage to talk to a stranger talaga. Lalo na if you have an introverted personality. Ilang beses ko na ding sinubukan ang ganyan pero failed ako lagi hehe. In your case, at least you were able to divert yourself skinny dipping. =]

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  2. Hi Keso! I'm a foolish introvert ;) kidding aside, I'm trying to change my self image from negative to positive so that I can be a good role model to my nephew.

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  3. napka visual ng pagkaka describe mo, pumipikit ako para imaginin. anyways, may next time pa naman - makakaya mo din kumausap ng stranger tapos malay mo mag skinny dip kayong sabay :)

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  4. Hi Zai! Ang purpose ko talaga ay para magkaroon ng ONS, di ko pa kasi na try ;)

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