Brave

Last weekend we traveled north for a little R & R.

There are 25 of us and for room assignments we were grouped into four per room. I was hoping to be grouped with my crush and the universe granted my wish with a bonus, we'll share a double bed.

It was a fun Saturday - him frolicking in the pool and playing games, me slyly ogling his delectable lean physique and bubble butt.

Then, evening came, the time I've been waiting for, me and him, sleeping in the same bed.

As we lie down in bed,  he suddenly blurted he's not wearing any undies - DAMN! My semi flaccid organ immediately became turgid with desire, every nerve ending of my body is awakened.

The anticipation was killing me. 

When I heard the snores from the other bed,  all my senses were heightened - this is the moment I've been longing since January 2012 (remember this). 

My crush is less than a feet away from my grasp and yet I can't move. 

Self doubt and fear of rejection is more powerful than my libido 

Nothing came into fruition that night. 

I really like this guy but I'm too much of a coward to do the first move. 

Another missed opportunity for me.

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I wish I can be like them...

                                                             You can be amazing

You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you