Meet Steve Grand. He writes: “time to be brave. the world does not see change until it sees honesty. I am taking a risk here in many ways, but really there is no choice but to be brave. To not tell this story is to let my soul die. It is all I believe in. It is all I hold dear. We have all longed for someone we can never have… we all have felt that ache for our #allamericanboy
first original song and music video. I gave everything for this. If my story makes even a couple people feel less alone in their aching, all the blood, sweat, tears, and soul I put into this project makes it worth it. Thanks for watching.”
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I'm not American but I can be your boy anytime :) Yup I'm turning into a potato queen ;)
Last weekend we traveled north for a little R & R.
There are 25 of us and for room assignments we were grouped into four per room. I was hoping to be grouped with my crush and the universe granted my wish with a bonus, we'll share a double bed.
It was a fun Saturday - him frolicking in the pool and playing games, me slyly ogling his delectable lean physique and bubble butt.
Then, evening came, the time I've been waiting for, me and him, sleeping in the same bed.
As we lie down in bed, he suddenly blurted he's not wearing any undies - DAMN! My semi flaccid organ immediately became turgid with desire, every nerve ending of my body is awakened.
The anticipation was killing me.
When I heard the snores from the other bed, all my senses were heightened - this is the moment I've been longing since January 2012 (remember this).
My crush is less than a feet away from my grasp and yet I can't move.
Self doubt and fear of rejection is more powerful than my libido
Nothing came into fruition that night.
I really like this guy but I'm too much of a coward to do the first move.
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
Everybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
Her songs were introduced to me by my first man love via a mix cd.
H is my college classmate, and back then we're dating girls =>. We both have different set of barkada at di ko siya ka ututang dila. High profile kasi siya, daming nagkakacrush at na link pa sa professor namin. Samantalang ako, di masyadong sociable, umiikot lang ang mundo ko sa school, kay girlfriend at sa barkada.
The first time na nag-usap kami na walang malisya ay during our "make up days" (incurred due to demerits and absences during our regular internship rotation) sa isang hospital. We talked about breaking up with our respective girlfriends, our board exam and our future plans.
Naging kabalitaan ko siya during our review for our boards. Nag enroll kasi siya sa review center at ako naman ay nagself review. Sa awa ng Diyos pareho naman kaming pumasa.
Nawalan kami ng communication after passing the boards. Ako ay umuwi sa probinsya para doon magpractice samantalang siya ay naiwan dito sa metro.
Fastforward tayo ng 2 years, nabalitaan ni H sa ex ko na dito na ulit ako sa Metro naka base.
We started communicating and going out hanggang sa nahantong sa pagmamahalan ...
