One of the reasons why I donate blood quarterly is the free laboratory exam for infectious diseases. I'm a cheapskate, sue me :)
Last March, I learned that there's a clinic in Manila that gives free testing for people like us. Here's my results...
I went there alone, but I didn't feel scared or anxious. The staffs are friendly and the counselor is not your typical counselor, I felt at home. Talking to the counselor about my sexual history is quite liberating and I learned a lot about myself and HIV/AIDS.
The waiting time is approximately 2 hours because they use both the Rapid and Particle Agglutination HIV tests.Waiting for the result is the most excruciating part of the ordeal but it's worth it because I want to know my status, may it be positive or negative.
Just click this link for more info about RITM Satellite Clinic in Malate.
Know your status, it's time to get tested!
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This song helped me when I took the test and yes I'm enamored with Smash :)
Here's a rundown of my so called life starting February
February - My English tutor and I met and it went well but due to conflict of schedule we are not able to meet again. My work ate a lot of my time but it seemed like it paid off because my department was nominated for 6 awards and I got 2 nominations, one for social responsibility and the other one is for quality service. My department won the awards but I went home empty handed. I was disappointed because I know that I more than deserve the award but hey that's life. This is the second year in a row that I went home empty handed. Never the bride always the bridesmaid...
For March, I was supposed to take my exams but again I was not able to do that because of
1. I'm financially broke and I don't have the money for the exam.
2. I'm not confident with my speaking skills because I don't have anyone to converse with. I tried talking to my friends in English but they only made fun of me.
3. I assisted my parents with their executive check-up and that depleted my budget for the exam and for reviewing. I know my parents can pay for their medical bills but I need to shoulder the bills because I feel that it is my responsibility as their son to give back what they've given me when I was still a child. You see, I feel like I'm not a good son because i'm gay and I cannot give them a grandchild. I know this is unreasonable but this is how I feel. They're the best parents and I feel that i don't deserve them because of my sexuality.
Anyway, last April, my papa was hospitalized due to skin abscess and again I shouldered the medical bills. Aside from the abscess he was also diagnosed with prostate cancer. Thank heavens it was caught early and the doctor prescribed him some medicines.
My parents stayed in my condo for 2 weeks and it was both a blessing and a curse. I don't wanna dwell with this so I'll stop here...
Now you're updated.
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hmm I don't check my grammar when I post my thoughts. I just type what's in my head and click publish. I'm lazy and I know it.
I am very sorry for the late update. It's not because I'm super busy with my schedule, it's because life is kicking my butt.
So what's the reason why I started posting again?
It's because of him...
I was inspired to write again.
I first met him last year when he was rotated in my department. I have a coordinator who supervises the underlings but every time there was an opportunity to be close to him I always grab it, like being the panel in their journal report and projects. He's smart and good looking, even he's "sungki" is adorable. But even if I have a gargantuan crush on him, I never crossed the line. Not because he's straight but because I don't want to ruin my reputation.
It's been 2 months since I last saw him and I still have this butterflies inside my tummy every time I see his pictures.
You never fail to inspire me Marco.
I hope our paths will cross again (hopefully not in my workplace...)
Je t'adore...
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Marco reminds me of my only singer crush Kris Allen, they are both on the vertically challenged side but that doesn't matter because both have an adorable face and a drool worthy physique!
I'm very much infatuated with Marco and Kris Allen.
To realize this dream I will stop my unending ruminations and start working constructively. This post is going to be my roadmap to success.
10 years from now I will own a company that will help institutions achieve top notch occupational health and safety standards.
To finance this dream I need to work abroad and here's my goal for this year
1st quarter - Take the TOEFL ibt, It will be a challenge for me to achieve the score of 24. The last time I took the exam I got 23/30 in speaking and 28/30 in the written part. I'm so ashamed of this score but I need to move on. I will swallow my pride and look for a tutor (any recommendations? I just hope that the cost is economical). Target examination date is March 24, 2012
Start gathering information about credentialing and agencies
2nd quarter - while waiting for the result, enroll to a nearby school to earn the units I needed for credentialling.
File my credentials before my parents go back to US
3rd quarter - Review center for State Boards. Target State is Texas.
4th quarter - Pass the state boards.
2013 to 2015 I will start working in Houston, Texas
Earn and save money (GOAL is to at least earn quarter a million dollar before the end of 2015 - is this realistic? Yes but I need 2 jobs for this lofty goal)
Get CME units for my future plans
celebrate every Thanksgiving & Christmas in California with my family
celebrate New year in Times square with my college classmates based in NY
Travel the Americas
Mardi Gras in Brazil
Macchu Picchu in Peru - I've been dreaming of visiting this ever since High School
2016 - 2020 Change work from Hospital based to Company based
Earn and save money (Target is a million dollar)
Gain more experience
start my business plan
networking
start my dream house by 2017
Travel to Europe with my parents
Sagrada Familia in Spain
Castles, Lochs and Stonehenge in UK anScotland
Louvre in France
Beaches in the Mediterranean
October Fest in Germany
2021 - Back to the Philippines to start my business
q1 - logistics and train 3 personnel to help with assessment and evaluations
q2 - acquire clients
q3 - work work work
2022 - Achieve ROI
I believe that all of these dreams and goals are achievable. Everything is possible.
Today, February 1, 2012 is the start of me achieving, imbibing and living these dreams.
Oh la la! Oh la la! Hot Couture! Hot Couture! Hot Couture! Hot coutore serving hot couture! Oh la la!
Put the base in my face Now I'm ready for the beat Pink lips hips tits Honey, tuck away the heat Lashes on, Fouboutins And I just blew out my hair Perfume Trashed room What 2 Wear?
Let the streets be my runway tonight In the fashion show we call life Got this fire burn-burnin inside And I'm serving! I'm serving
Hot Couture (Im wearing, wearing) Hot Couture (Supermodel) Hot Couture (Fierce) Hot Couture serving hot couture Oh la la! Hot Couture (I'm killin', killin') Hot Couture (Manila) Hot Couture (WERRK!) Hot Couture serving hot couture Oh la la!
Glamour queen, disco scene Pumpin' in designer shoes sequins, safety pins Yeah Manila's got it, boots Gaultier target Lookin sick'ning in this dress Ching chong shut it down Ovahness
Let the streets be my runway tonight In the fashion show we call life Got this fire burn-burnin inside And I'm serving! I'm serving...
Hot Couture (Im wearing, wearing) Hot Couture (Supermodel) Hot Couture (Fierce) Hot Couture serving hot couture Oh la la! Hot Couture (I'm killin', killin') Hot Couture (Manila) Hot Couture (WERRK!) Hot Couture serving hot couture Oh la la!
Hot Couture (Im wearing, wearing) Hot Couture (Supermodel) Hot Couture (Fierce) Hot Couture serving hot couture Oh la la! Hot Couture (I'm killin', killin') Hot Couture (Manila) Hot Couture (WERRK!) Hot Couture serving hot couture Oh la la!
We first met a couple of months ago, during a workshop somewhere in Manila. The workshop constitute of 18 individuals from different walks of life. The common denominator is, we are all gay and we want to help.
At first, I was not that captivated with him but last weekend was a revelation.
Please note that my relationship status is a common knowledge in our group and I behaved demurely during the workshop and the whole weekend. 'di ako malandi, nasa loob lang ang kulo ;)
I was late for our workshop. He was in the opposite side of our circle and sitting with the group that is secretly enamored with him. At first I was disappointed because I'm not seated with their group, but the universe was conspiring with me because we were randomly partnered for the workshop and he was also my "dorm mate" for the weekend.
J is about 5'7 and weights approximately 125 to 130 lb, fair skinned with no visible pock marks. Hairstyle is clean cut (he claimed that he cut his hair with the help of his mom). He's physique is like a runner - lean and wiry (redundant!).
The feature that made me awestruck is his pert glutes. I was thunderstruck when I saw his gray clad buttocks after our shower together (Yup I need to write that down, twas a surreal experience - we're talking about the characteristics of men that we want to date while lathering our sinewy bodies - my first time). I was not expecting a glorious sight because he's skinny, but heavens! those gluteals are so gloriously shaped. Those muscular globes conjures volumes of lusty thoughts. Words is not enough to describe his magnificent ass. It's almost like this...
image from google
but lovelier and perkier ;)
J is a perfect specimen of a Chinese twink, lean, cute and nerdy ( I admire guys with spectacles!) , a deadly combination.
